• Amanda R

The Time I Caved And Found A Therapist

Updated: Mar 1


It was about 8 years ago now that I was messaging a co-worker about my constant worrying and overthinking. It wasn't "normal" to be spiraling the way I had been for months.


My brain was on overdrive 24/7.

I had a tight/heaviness on my chest.

I couldn't seem to catch my breath.

I was crying at anything and everything wherever I was.

I couldn't "keep it together".


I was worrying about:

  • Finances

  • What I said last week

  • What I'm going to say at a friend's next weekend (or even next month!)

  • How I will or won't lose weight

  • I made a mistake at work and how was it perceived

  • And probably more crap I can't remember

I knew in my heart what I was going through was not how I wanted to continue to live my life. So I caved.


I sat at my computer and "Googled" for a therapist. I read a few reviews of different professionals and honestly, I was so desperate that I chose a name and called the number. I am so glad and proud of myself that I did.


Seeking help in the frame of mind that I was in, I felt like a failure because I couldn't figure it out on my own. But now, as I have a better outlook on life and fill my days with gratitude, I know that "failure" is not what I was that day...


I was brave.


If you're feeling overwhelmed, lonely, sad, can't catch your breath, constantly worrying, and more... I understand what you're going through. I've been in your shoes and some days I still have those emotions that over-consume me. I'm here to tell you that it does get better and easier to manage with practice and professional help.


You are not a failure for seeking help. You are brave, too.


Did I mention that my current therapist is my 3-4th one? Yup! So if you find that you don't mesh well with your therapist, it's okay to look for another! S/he won't take it personally. ;-)

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